It’s the warm sweet hug that I still miss when we are not together. That tight embrace that never fails to make me all right. Just the feeling of being close to your body makes me feel wanted. I hope we could embrace like this for eternity. So please don’t stop loving me. Because every little thing you do will be missed. That’s how much I love you.
All I ever wanted was for you to say that I am the one.
All I ever wanted was for you to decipher every word I say.
All I ever wanted was for you to know that despite our differences, there are still something known between us.
All I ever wanted.
Even before, I am a hopeless romantic. I still believe in fairy tales, the happily ever after ending, the passionate yet sweet kisses before the final curtain, and the running away to the sunset kind of story. I still believe in forever. And I still believe in destiny. Even if I have fallen hard out of love with the pasts, it still ain’t enough to make me forget of my forever ever after. Everyone must have felt betrayed, unloved or unrequited. But in the end, we stand firmly again and hoped that someday our fairy tale like ending will come. We cling unto hope, some on false hopes but still the mere thought of believing and hoping for true love still mattered. I believe in never ending promises, and wedding vows. I still believe in love after countless of heartbreaks. For I still believe in my heart that when I finally find my one true love… The pain and the tears from the past doesn’t matter anymore.
And I am grateful today that through heartaches, I have found someone who will finally make my dreams come true.
Hey. Am I the right girl for you? Am I the one you want to spend the rest of your life; have a family and grow old? Will you still want me when you begin to discover the girl behind the makeup and the fake smiles? Will you still love me when you learn of my past; the broken heart, the shattered soul and fragile body? Will I be the right girl who will make you feel what eternity is like? Hey, behind the tears and the complaints, will you still need me like air to your lungs, like sunlight on a dark stormy day? Tell me now before its too late.Disclaimer: I do not own the photo. Credits to the real owner.
And the memories, emotions came pouring down.
Remember your first love? The girl you thought was the right one? The girl whose smile never failed to brighten up your day? Whose gorgeous smile shines like the moon in a cold autumn night? That girl who gave her heart to you wholly. The one who cared for you when no one else did? Look at her then. Remember her face. Remember why you loved her first. Tell me now. Did you ever felt regret losing her? She was perfect for you. She was intelligent and keen, but you hated her jealousy. She was faithful and kind, but you hated her clingy attitude. She devoted her time to you, but you wasted it all. Remember your first love? Have you ever felt that kind of love right now? Tell me now… What mattered to you at that time when you left her for another? Was it because the present now is more beautiful, mature, gorgeous and exotic? Looks will change over time i tell you that. Now do you remember your first love? That girl that meant everything to you in the past? That girl that was the right one for you. How come you let her go? Was it pride? Were you looking for something else? Spice? Temptation? Space? Time? Now tell me… Do you really remember that girl? Your first love. Your true love. Your right one? Then why did you let her go?
There was this girl that I met in the train station. She was beautiful; long jet black hair, big brown eyes and a face that looked like those of an angel. She was standing next to me on the platform, a satchel bag on her hands. It was raining outside the station, lightning flashed and thunder roared. People were frantic as news came that flood was at every corner of the metro. I looked at my watch. I guess I have to call mom now and tell her I am going to be late. I thought of my dad… Will he be at home at this hour? Then my attention came back to this girl. I heard her sobbing, tears overflowing. Her cheeks were flushed, lips painted red and eyes almost swollen. Underneath her makeup, sadness was taking toll over her. She was almost shaking as she held unto her satchel. I wanted to ask her if she was all right but how could she tell me that… I was just a mere stranger to her. But she caught me staring at her, eyes dotting for answers. She wiped her eyes with her palms and smiled at me like we have known each other for so long. Then she began to talk: “have you ever been cheated?” She asked underneath soft sobs. I was taken about, I didn’t know what to reply. Underneath, I was hoping to ask her the same question. In our entire life, I guess we have hurt once or twice. But does it matter to her right now. “No.” I lied. She smiled. At the distance, the lights from the train flashed. I looked at it and then back to her. She had stopped crying but you could almost tell how badly hurt she has been. The train halted. I looked back to her and she looked at me with those sad eyes. “Don’t fall in love easily. But don’t fall too short on love as well.” And she entered the train. I was caught aback. I didn’t know what to answer. So I waited for the doors to close. I’ll wait for next train. As the train moved before me, I saw her looked out to me. She was still crying; long black hair, big brown eyes. she was just a reflection. I bit my lower lip. Damn it.I couldn’t write this story well. I have the concept in my head, but I can’t write it into words. I’ll revise soon enough. Disclaimer: photo credits to the real owner.